I am woman hear me roar (but not too loud because I don’t have it in me)

My anger,
Quiet, hot, and embarassed,
Never seething,
Always afraid.

Never loud.
Confused, if anything.
Frustrated, maybe? Not that I’m mad at you.
No really — I’m upset with myself is all. Yes, that’s it. I’m upset.

Look at this —
I’m a bumbling freak.
Oh gosh, I’m sorry. I’m rambling, aren’t I?
Sorry, I’m just so — yeah sorry.